Confusion everywhere

Words everywhere how to tell if they are true I don't know,
is there a way of telling if there is how so..?
I need a direct path someone who will be just direct with what they feel,
because I don't need more pain and aches...when I'm still not well I'm learning how to heal.
Mummbles and words don't mean a thing if they mean nothing to you no meaning,
if you have no meaning then you must have no feeling.
To love me you need to love everything about me..even my flaws,
no ones perfect everyone has done something wrong.
Mine are simple and easy to tell,
but now I am good and kind of well.
I don't need more wrong doings in my life,
no more games I want a direct path.
So just be clear,
or are you queer?
I don't care if you are,
your distant with me and far.
Evertyhing you'd said running through my head,
where has it lead?
To this point where nothing has changned this whole time,
were still not together your still not mine.
I just sigh and look down,
I've burdened a greater frown.
I'm going out of my head and no more time left,
tell me all thats to be said.
Tell me the truth no more lies please,
or are you a tease?
I don't know you tell me,
tell me whats meant to be.
Nothing...am I in the friend zone,
I'd rather be alone.
No one gonna get me,
no one gonna catch me.
No one gonna love me,
no one really wants me.